summer envy of a plenty *

stop and stare, i think i;m moving, but i go nowhere
yeah, i know that everyone gets scared. but i;ve become what i can;t be
stop and stare, you start to wonder why you;re here not there
and you;d give anything to get what;s fair. but fair ain;t what you really need

can you see what I see?

as a matter of fact, sometimes,
i wish time will pass faster and things will be a little different.
it;s just that simple, not to much of a hassel. aint it?
it;ll just come and go.come and go.come and go.eventually
and we;ll prolly wont be left in such a difficult spot. you get me?
yes, that was it.that easy.just like a wink and it goes poof poof, forever.

embedded deep within the depths of my being,
scribbled all over my past endless book of yesteryears…
are the things i wished you could feel, as much as what i felt like,then…

[but on the telephone line,
i am anyone, i am anything, i want to be 
i could be a supermodel, or norman mailer
and you wouldn't know the difference

on the telephone line, 
i am any height, i am any age i want to be
i could be a caped crusader or space invader,  
and you wouldn't know the difference, or would you?]

simple, any me of glee.arrive.now.soon.sometime.later
i miss.terribly.badly.happily.oneday.intime
get me? hear you me? please? would you? .ok.

sometimes i feel like crying, but the tears wouldnt flow
sometimes i feel like screaming, but my voice wouldnt seem to sound
sometimes i feel like running, but my feet wouldnt seem to budge
sometimes i feel like giving up, but i hold on, for fear that i might regret…

days ahead will get better, i just know it.
all these emotions will somehow pass and i;ll be happy again…

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**on a lighter note:

bro just flew off to netherlands yesterday.
and guess what? almost everyone turned up and boy was it shocking!
i was pretty touched and darn glad..i am glad i have such a warm family
who really cares and make a point to turn up amidst their busy schedule..
after work, after school..i feel so blessed already and yay! i love everyone!!

the bestest-est ever, in my life..

boundless questions why but indeed, i do better when pushed
uh huh..look positively pretty ade, and my statement stands true:

“tomorrow will be a better day, for me (that is)..smile ade, smile “

ades got the dreamers; disease

“our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs, with sepia-toned loving
love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
why are we here? and where do we go?and how come it’s so hard?
it;s not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
i;ll tell you one thing, it;s always better when we;re together…”

* it;ll only make us stronger, day by day…time after time
i know, at the very end, we;re on this path, together 
for you;re the best family i was given by the great one above… :)

and the elegant tinkerbell flew weightlessly thru and fro
she looked into her little pocket and carefully whipped out a glowing wand
gently, she waved her tiny wand and magic dust was sprinkled all over ade
“i wish you all the luck and happiness.” she said, with an angelic smile
“hell yea, your stupid magic thingy better work or i;m screwed!” ade replied.